Introduction...

I barely know where to begin. I created this blog because I need to get all of this out in the open without changing any of the close relationships I have. This will be my escape from the harsh reality of love, friendship, and life. Don't get me wrong, they are all great, but some days I wish I could just write it all out and leave it there. I'm creating this blog not only to let me express my truly honest feelings, but I hope if anyone ever stumbles upon this, they too will find that they either can relate to it or have related to it in the past.

Just looking at the title of this blog, it's set mainly around boys. More specifically, one boy. A boy I can't get. I know, cue the violins! No, it's not like that. He is my best friend and I am crazy in love with him. Now here's the kicker....he has a girlfriend. Even worse, she is only 17 and still in high school. I know this sounds like a Taylor Swift song, but it's my life right now. I hang out with him everyday, whether it is at work or at one of our houses. He stays the night at my place, I sleep on his couch with him. We are literally inseperable. There were months at a time were we would have sleepovers 5 out of the 7 days a week. Now, when I say sleepovers, I don't mean hooking up because that's not whats going down. Me being 21 and him 20, we stay up late either talking or watching movies, especially Disney movies :)


So, where did this all begin? We started working together a little over two years ago at a new restaurant that opened. We instantly got along because of all the similarities we share. Fastforward to now and you will find our friendship fully grown into us being BFF's (no we have never actually said BFF to one another). So why am I in such a pickle? Because I believe he has feelings for me too, but he is stuck. No, I'm not one of those girls who thinks she can get anyone. If anything I have no self esteem! But too many moments have occured where he has said something or done something suggesting more than friendly gestures.


How do I change this situation I'm in? This is a question I ask myself daily. Being his best friend, I would never do anything to purposely jeopardize his relationship with her, but I hate sitting back watching her break him down with her stupid high school drama and immature personality. She is always yelling at him for things that he has no control over. Now he and I have both recently received promotions within our job and have relocated to a new city and store location. When he called his girlfriend to inform her of the news her first comment to him was, " Seriously? So when will I ever see you? Never?!" ..... Come on little high schooler. She wasn't even proud of her man being promoted to a great position.  He is one of the most mature guys I have ever met. He may be a few months younger than me, but he has the same charasmatic and genuine maturity that guys years older than me carry. I always would say he was the perfect example of a guy I need to find, until I realized he was the one I wanted ultimately.

That leaves me here, with a blog that will remain anonymous. I will stay a secret, and he will be M. I'm that girl, that hopeless romantic. My friends will always ask me who is he? I simply reply, "Oh, he's just some guy..."